Questions keep coming

I am at a point where the more I learn about Kabbalah the more questions I have. What seems apparent is not. Let me put it this way. Kabbalists tell us that what we see is not really there. Now come on, I see this computer in front of me. But wait, perhaps what I see is only my own perception of reality. Did you ever look at the color of something with a friend and they call it purple and you call it blue?? Maybe that is what they are talking about. Everybody sees the world through their own lenses. Perhaps this is why communcation break down occurs. Sometimes trying to convey a message is very difficult because there are no words to describe what we saw or felt. I am learning that I am not in control, even of my own thoughts. I know that sounds strange but where do the thoughts come from? Like I said, lots and lots of questions and I intend to keep searching for answers. In the meantime I am enjoying this roller coasted they call life because my attitude and perspective is changing. Perhaps it is not the world that is messed up but my own interpretation of it??? Peace, Love, and Light.

Blind Faith

Sometimes when I walk in the morning I close my eyes and walk straight ahead, knowing that somehow I will keep moving forward. I thought about this as I walked this morning and felt as if this is what is meant by blind faith. I can't see where I am going but I know that I will get there, and if I veer off course somehow I will be guided back. This morning I was walking with my eyes closed and apparently I started walking toward where the pavement meets the grass and I was jolted a bit and opened my eyes. I got back on the pavement and kept on walking. Isn't this like life? We tend to get off course and something causes us to get back on track. This must be the suffering that we could actually view as opportunity if only our perceptions of life could be changed. I believe they can. I have been studying Kabbalah, and what the Kabbalists tell us is when we feel that we are suffering it is because we are going against what the creator wants for us, which is to receive in order to bestow, to become closer to the creator and do what he does. I do not know exactly what that means as of yet but I am willing to find out. We are also told that the key to fulfillment in this life and in this world is to invert our egoism to altruism. Imagine a world where everybody loved their neighbor as themselves. Imagine if we all knew that we actually came from the same place originally? Imagine if we all had blind faith? Love and peace are the answer, and you can't have one without the other I believe. Have a loving and peaceful day.

life is like a roller coaster

I haven't written in some time. I have been side tracked, as life tends to do that to you. Don't you sometimes feel you are on a roller coaster ride, and you want to get off? Or you can't see that big dip and are feaing when you will begin to go down? I am not depressed but it feels as if every day is a test. When negative things are happening, and the dip is getting steeper it is difficult at times to realize that it is how we react to it that matters.

Worry, panic and fear get us nowhere. If we can release all that and recognize the things we have no control over, it is so much easier to get through the day.

My biggest concern lately is finances, as I am sure it is for a lot of people. I think of that Police song, "We are spirits in the material world." When we really step back out of our own head that is all that we really are. Nothing else matters. Isn't there more to life than what we see around us. The answer is yes!!

I am still discovering who I am and how I can manage and what I want to do with my life!! At times I feel content, and at other times I feel restless and know that there is more.

I am thinking that this is a spiritual quest. Searching for what is beyond our physical world, and recognizing that what we think and feel and how we react determines whether we enjoy the roller coaster ride or we fear it.

Today, I will concentrate on the enjoyment and not let life's events that I am not enjoying. I will focus on the positive.

For now I must sign off to wake up my son for a community service project for Boy Scouts.